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rhyllI'm going sailing tonight, and I'll probably be away for 3 or 4 days, about. I'm looking forward to it, and the weather here's been quite good so far so hopefully it won't be too much time huddling in a corner being seasick in the rain.
In other news:
* Frida Hyronen = pretty awesome
Also: I've been doing a bit of soul-searching the last week or so. Thinking about where I am in life and where I want to be, and frankly not being all that pleased by my assessment. Which I suppose is nothing new. I'm not so sure about this whole academia thing...sometimes it seems a lot like a default option, and I'm not sure how much I believe in anything I'm doing at the moment.
I've been writing more fiction lately, and I suppose that's feeding into all this confusion. Because I see so many people out there who are doing amazing art and taking risks with it, being prepared to go out on a limb and try to live doing something that they love and care about. And I know that 'something that I love and care about' doesn't necessarily exclude my academic stuff, but at the moment I'm just feeling so lost with the whole thing. And I hate the way I'm living my life right now, cutting off so much of the stuff I used to do and forgetting to make time for people, spending time doing filling-in-things instead of being engaged and challenged.
Anyway, all of this is just thinking out loud...no huge decisions on my list right now, just musing and trying to keep my eyes open about my life.
Maybe one of these days I'll actually write some stuff about my travels.
In other news:
* Frida Hyronen = pretty awesome
Also: I've been doing a bit of soul-searching the last week or so. Thinking about where I am in life and where I want to be, and frankly not being all that pleased by my assessment. Which I suppose is nothing new. I'm not so sure about this whole academia thing...sometimes it seems a lot like a default option, and I'm not sure how much I believe in anything I'm doing at the moment.
I've been writing more fiction lately, and I suppose that's feeding into all this confusion. Because I see so many people out there who are doing amazing art and taking risks with it, being prepared to go out on a limb and try to live doing something that they love and care about. And I know that 'something that I love and care about' doesn't necessarily exclude my academic stuff, but at the moment I'm just feeling so lost with the whole thing. And I hate the way I'm living my life right now, cutting off so much of the stuff I used to do and forgetting to make time for people, spending time doing filling-in-things instead of being engaged and challenged.
Anyway, all of this is just thinking out loud...no huge decisions on my list right now, just musing and trying to keep my eyes open about my life.
Maybe one of these days I'll actually write some stuff about my travels.
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on 2007-07-17 08:50 pm (UTC)Until I actually started talking to people, I had no idea how many PhD students go through this stuff. It's not at all uncommon to be feeling that way a year in. Tell your supervisor what up, and if he/she is any good, you'll get some good words back. I'd also highly recommend the PSA sundowner this afternoon from 5:30 in the tav. Free beer and pizza, and an abundance of friends in similar situations. And me!
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on 2007-07-21 09:23 am (UTC)I've shifted the direction of my research a bit lately and my supervisor's just emailed me saying that he approves, so I'm feeling a bit better about it all. Still, I think it would do me good to get down to one of these free-beer-and-pizza occasions :)