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I'm back in Perth.
Last night was the first time since I left that I woke up disoriented in the middle of the night, confused about where and when I was, unsure about how the space around me fit together.
This morning I felt panicked about being back, about whether I can make sure that being here feels as wonderful as the last couple of weeks have. There have been many aspects that were difficult (particularly all my people-anxieties and my sense of inadequacy in the face of so much Awesome), but there is also a lot that I'm afraid of losiing.
I made lists in my head. What was the essence of the best of my time at burning man and the last few days in SF? Where are the places that it exists here? Projects that need work, communities that I am a part of, ways of living. Gifts, colour, surprises, connections, learning, exploring.
I know that Perth is full of excitement and adventure, full of Cool Things to make and do, and most especially full of people that I'm longing to spend time with. For now I feel a little overwhelmed by my return, unsure about how to handle it.
Today: unpacking and catching up on work and people, listing projects to come, making plots and plans.
Last night was the first time since I left that I woke up disoriented in the middle of the night, confused about where and when I was, unsure about how the space around me fit together.
This morning I felt panicked about being back, about whether I can make sure that being here feels as wonderful as the last couple of weeks have. There have been many aspects that were difficult (particularly all my people-anxieties and my sense of inadequacy in the face of so much Awesome), but there is also a lot that I'm afraid of losiing.
I made lists in my head. What was the essence of the best of my time at burning man and the last few days in SF? Where are the places that it exists here? Projects that need work, communities that I am a part of, ways of living. Gifts, colour, surprises, connections, learning, exploring.
I know that Perth is full of excitement and adventure, full of Cool Things to make and do, and most especially full of people that I'm longing to spend time with. For now I feel a little overwhelmed by my return, unsure about how to handle it.
Today: unpacking and catching up on work and people, listing projects to come, making plots and plans.
