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rhyllas if i'm going to write 50,000 words in a month. my writing style is all wrong. too condensed. even a crap novel in a month is a ridiculous idea.
argh. doom. i will never be a writer, and i don't have a plan b. in fact, being a writer is only a very vague plan a, in a 5-yr old 'i'm gunna be an astronaut when i grow up!' kind of way.
plus, i'm really far too happy lately to feel like i need to exorcise my angsty inner demons through writing.
i have lovely supportive housemates and a beautiful house (and garden!), wonderful friends (especially nina, chloe, simon and, prospectively, alison), and my boy-of-choice is delicious.
it's such a relief that things are good with j again. that my head isn't constantly making me feel insecure and, subsequently, defensively hostile. it's like having one of my best friends back.
and all this joy (and also my complete lack of writing practise/skill of late) means i have no words for my novel. maybe i'll go tidy for a bit, and then i might write later. (haha. ha.)
argh. doom. i will never be a writer, and i don't have a plan b. in fact, being a writer is only a very vague plan a, in a 5-yr old 'i'm gunna be an astronaut when i grow up!' kind of way.
plus, i'm really far too happy lately to feel like i need to exorcise my angsty inner demons through writing.
i have lovely supportive housemates and a beautiful house (and garden!), wonderful friends (especially nina, chloe, simon and, prospectively, alison), and my boy-of-choice is delicious.
it's such a relief that things are good with j again. that my head isn't constantly making me feel insecure and, subsequently, defensively hostile. it's like having one of my best friends back.
and all this joy (and also my complete lack of writing practise/skill of late) means i have no words for my novel. maybe i'll go tidy for a bit, and then i might write later. (haha. ha.)
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on 2003-11-03 01:48 am (UTC)but, you must write. for, i must read it. so, get to, get to. or else i shall slap you until you're pissed off enough to type.
Crazy...
on 2003-11-04 09:09 pm (UTC)Hope you don't mind that I stumbled across it.
-Lx
Re: Crazy...
on 2003-11-04 11:44 pm (UTC)Re: Crazy...
on 2003-11-05 06:35 am (UTC)-Lx
Re: Crazy...
on 2003-11-07 12:57 am (UTC)nice to hear from you :) feel free to read. i have no secrets. well, apart from that one about why are tomatoes are growing so well...