A quiet house

[rhyll]

Well, J just left for Europe for six weeks and I'm trying to do my Greek homework, but mostly just feeling unsettled. It felt strange coming back to the house from the airport - everything feels musty and abandoned, and smells all wrong. I'm going to tidy a little tonight when I get back from class, not because it's messy but because I think I need to re-settle into the house a bit, give it some love and nest a bit. When I finish I'll listen to some audio books and do some craft.

Part of me is fretting about missing him. We haven't spent this much time apart since we started going out, and it feels odd that he's going to be meeting people and learning things and be in new places and I won't be there to be part of it. At the same time, I know that this is going to be a great time for him, and I'm glad he's having the experience. And even though I know I'll miss him, I'm going to make sure that I use the time well. I'm going to spend as much time with my family as I can spare, which I'm looking forward to. I'm going to do craft, and write, and stay up past my bedtime. I'm going to practice ukulele and accordion. I'm going to spend some days alone wandering the city and having adventures, which it feels like I haven't done in the longest time. I'm going to see friends.

And I'm even going to resist the urge to throw out J's giant inflatable penguin.