Missions, headsplosions

[rhyll]

* Start working on my mental health: meditate at least once, remind myself that I'm good just how I am whenever I start fretting. >> Nope. I've been trying to be calm and avoid racing thoughts, but didn't meditate.
* Read two chapters of my greek book, start on the exercises. >> Done.
* Finish my marking. >> Kind of done.
* Make some progress on the teaching award application. >> Nope.

I also did some other things:
* More gardening, more throwing stuff out.
* A job application in.
* Lots of good people time.

I slept really badly last night, but I had an awesome morning: I achieved victory over the bougainvillea, had a great cycle to Curtin, a pleasant meeting, and finished reading my book.

The afternoon, less so. I started fretting about latest News from J, which is mostly good (possible awesome job opportunities for him!) but also makes me feel very unsteady about my work-future and how J and I will balance our work-stuff. I guess I was pretty tuckered out, because I got so distraught thinking about that on the ride home that I was in tears by the time I got back. I tried to calm myself down, and made myself have a nap, but woke up feeling kind of shitty. Then found out that I have a whole pile of surprise marking to do (my own fault), more frets.

And of course all of this fretting feels rather trivial and childish of me, when two people I care about are in the hospital right now. We are never really good at that kind of putting-things-in-perspective, though.

So this afternoon is all about drinking tea, and marking, and maybe some careful Care and Feeding of myself in the evening. Maybe even some meditation, to help with all the frets.

[Edit: okay, turns out I don't have a heap of marking to do. I hadn't marked those assignment because they were not in my pile. My brain is clearly just not working today.]