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I've been in a spiky mood of late. Lots of days of stomping and avoiding people.
Didn't help that on monday, the little boys that i babysit told me that i should find a religion (preferably catholicism) or i'd go to hell. and that i was a bad person. ick.
(Mind you, i had them for about 5 hours yesterday and they were fine, so that's ok.)
so, i haven't been seeing that much of people lately, 'cos i only want to see people who aren't emotionally demanding or effort. attempted to go out on sunday night - hung around with some of julian's friends, and that was something of a fiasco. they were playing trivial pursuit, and being so damn nasty about it ('you don't know that? everyone knows that! you suck so much if you don't get this question right!'). so i left in a huff (cycled home in the rain). i did feel somewhat vindicated, however, 'cos simon said that if i could dink him he'd be leaving too.
so all this spikiness had meant that i've only really been spending time with
1) nina and alison: supportive, lots of love, all good.
2) julian: mmm. backrubs. plus when we wake up in the morning he watches me (half asleep, sleep in my eyes, ridiculous hair) and tells me i'm beautiful. (we'll ignore the fact that his glasses weren't on yet.)
3) people i get paid to spend time with.
the whole being-friends-with-alison thing seems to be working out quite nicely. the other night we went to see kill bill, which was interesting in many ways. the best bit, though, was dinking ali there and back. teeehehe.
and i gave her my diary to read, all the recent, very personal, distressed, and somewhat-related-to-alison bits.
so. yes. i have a new friend. i have decided, it's official.
ali is great.
hmm. i probably have more stuff to write about.
briefly (hah!):
my bike tyre got a nail in it yesterday. have to change the tube today.
nanowrimo: kind of lost interest in the story i was writing. kyle and mum keep trying to encourage me, so i'll do some more. no way in hell am i going to make 50,000 words, but at least i've done more writing than usual.
ok. enough!
Didn't help that on monday, the little boys that i babysit told me that i should find a religion (preferably catholicism) or i'd go to hell. and that i was a bad person. ick.
(Mind you, i had them for about 5 hours yesterday and they were fine, so that's ok.)
so, i haven't been seeing that much of people lately, 'cos i only want to see people who aren't emotionally demanding or effort. attempted to go out on sunday night - hung around with some of julian's friends, and that was something of a fiasco. they were playing trivial pursuit, and being so damn nasty about it ('you don't know that? everyone knows that! you suck so much if you don't get this question right!'). so i left in a huff (cycled home in the rain). i did feel somewhat vindicated, however, 'cos simon said that if i could dink him he'd be leaving too.
so all this spikiness had meant that i've only really been spending time with
1) nina and alison: supportive, lots of love, all good.
2) julian: mmm. backrubs. plus when we wake up in the morning he watches me (half asleep, sleep in my eyes, ridiculous hair) and tells me i'm beautiful. (we'll ignore the fact that his glasses weren't on yet.)
3) people i get paid to spend time with.
the whole being-friends-with-alison thing seems to be working out quite nicely. the other night we went to see kill bill, which was interesting in many ways. the best bit, though, was dinking ali there and back. teeehehe.
and i gave her my diary to read, all the recent, very personal, distressed, and somewhat-related-to-alison bits.
so. yes. i have a new friend. i have decided, it's official.
ali is great.
hmm. i probably have more stuff to write about.
briefly (hah!):
my bike tyre got a nail in it yesterday. have to change the tube today.
nanowrimo: kind of lost interest in the story i was writing. kyle and mum keep trying to encourage me, so i'll do some more. no way in hell am i going to make 50,000 words, but at least i've done more writing than usual.
ok. enough!