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rhyllEven within a rather expanded definition of "ought". For example:
* paperwork for my trip to India,
* my tax,
* writing fiction (including a story i owe someone),
* transcription,
* writing my current chapter, which i said i'd send to my supervisor before i left,
* researching case study #2,
* preparing the talk i'm giving at shenton college in under two weeks,
* sending emails/letters,
* cooking something with red cabbage in it.
But my motivation is at its lowest level, as is my self-confidence, which just makes it all seem terribly difficult (not to mention ill-fated). My people-related-paranoia also seems to be at its zenith, which doesn't help.
On the plus side, cycling a lot means i'm getting lots of sunshine and exercise, which is probably doing a fair bit to keep me functional. And i know, as with all such times, that this is temporary, and once i figure out where i'm going with this chapter and the moon's phase (or whatever mysterious force governs my moods) changes i'll start feeling better.
Also, i bought a heap of books yesterday and spent the evening reading, which is always pleasant. I finished The Golden Compass and Spook Country, both of which were good, and i'm rereading The Diamond Age, which i love.
I'm glad that i'm starting to feel a bit more enthusiastic about the world, because i have ridiculous amounts to do before i leave on the 22nd.
* paperwork for my trip to India,
* my tax,
* writing fiction (including a story i owe someone),
* transcription,
* writing my current chapter, which i said i'd send to my supervisor before i left,
* researching case study #2,
* preparing the talk i'm giving at shenton college in under two weeks,
* sending emails/letters,
* cooking something with red cabbage in it.
But my motivation is at its lowest level, as is my self-confidence, which just makes it all seem terribly difficult (not to mention ill-fated). My people-related-paranoia also seems to be at its zenith, which doesn't help.
On the plus side, cycling a lot means i'm getting lots of sunshine and exercise, which is probably doing a fair bit to keep me functional. And i know, as with all such times, that this is temporary, and once i figure out where i'm going with this chapter and the moon's phase (or whatever mysterious force governs my moods) changes i'll start feeling better.
Also, i bought a heap of books yesterday and spent the evening reading, which is always pleasant. I finished The Golden Compass and Spook Country, both of which were good, and i'm rereading The Diamond Age, which i love.
I'm glad that i'm starting to feel a bit more enthusiastic about the world, because i have ridiculous amounts to do before i leave on the 22nd.