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rhyllOh my! I was already feeling much happier, but then I got on the Internet and I got so much more love, and I felt very spoilt.
One of the reasons why I was feeling happier today is because this morning I have felt very pleasantly 'parented'. I had a lovely talk with my father about relaxing and meditation and making time to calm down. It also helped me to remember that some of the ideas I had for the "same sex attraction and spirituality" workshop one of my favourite people was going to run might apply to me, also. I think it might be nice to make myself a little shrine to Saraswati and make general offerings for good luck and being looked after and such.
Also, I had a very long and interesting talk with Mr Babu from the Centre for Social Research and Action. I liked it that when we discussed further communication, he said, "Oh, well, I am comfortable emailing you to discuss these issues further, now that I know your mother is a Marxist". It was funny because we had both mentioned that we were not entirely Marxists, and yet he said it like it made everything okay.
It might seem strange, but all this long-distance niceness makes a big difference. I loved the picture of such niceness coming through the computer!
Additionally, I have decided to be more proactive about some of the things I dislike about India. I have been staring back at men, and doing angry eyes at them. And I will look for women to smile at more, when the men are getting me down. Also, I am asserting myself with the room service guy.
I have been making sure to pay attention to how beautiful the houses are here, and the chalked designs outside the doorways. I am remembering to look for squirrels, and to eat some watermelon. I am writing little poems, and thinking about how much I like my friends and family. I am getting work done, and remembering that it's ok to have bad days.
I am being delighted by bicycles.
One of the reasons why I was feeling happier today is because this morning I have felt very pleasantly 'parented'. I had a lovely talk with my father about relaxing and meditation and making time to calm down. It also helped me to remember that some of the ideas I had for the "same sex attraction and spirituality" workshop one of my favourite people was going to run might apply to me, also. I think it might be nice to make myself a little shrine to Saraswati and make general offerings for good luck and being looked after and such.
Also, I had a very long and interesting talk with Mr Babu from the Centre for Social Research and Action. I liked it that when we discussed further communication, he said, "Oh, well, I am comfortable emailing you to discuss these issues further, now that I know your mother is a Marxist". It was funny because we had both mentioned that we were not entirely Marxists, and yet he said it like it made everything okay.
It might seem strange, but all this long-distance niceness makes a big difference. I loved the picture of such niceness coming through the computer!
Additionally, I have decided to be more proactive about some of the things I dislike about India. I have been staring back at men, and doing angry eyes at them. And I will look for women to smile at more, when the men are getting me down. Also, I am asserting myself with the room service guy.
I have been making sure to pay attention to how beautiful the houses are here, and the chalked designs outside the doorways. I am remembering to look for squirrels, and to eat some watermelon. I am writing little poems, and thinking about how much I like my friends and family. I am getting work done, and remembering that it's ok to have bad days.
I am being delighted by bicycles.
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on 2006-02-24 08:36 am (UTC)