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rhylli'm getting back into the habit of seeing people again. j's friends and such.
and i enjoy it, but sometimes it takes it out of me, too.
yesterday after an hour or so at the reid i was so jittery and nervous from all the people.
and then there was some time walking along the river in the wind, some time sitting in a tree and listening to leaves and waves, and i felt still again.
and then there was massive trauma.
and then that special comfort that comes from sheer emotional exhaustion and relief. and free greek coffee, because of my 'infectious smile'. (bwahahaha!)
as i was falling asleep i kept getting horrible pictures in my head. blood and needles. this is a thing that happens sometimes. but i was comforted.
and i feel safe again.
and i enjoy it, but sometimes it takes it out of me, too.
yesterday after an hour or so at the reid i was so jittery and nervous from all the people.
and then there was some time walking along the river in the wind, some time sitting in a tree and listening to leaves and waves, and i felt still again.
and then there was massive trauma.
and then that special comfort that comes from sheer emotional exhaustion and relief. and free greek coffee, because of my 'infectious smile'. (bwahahaha!)
as i was falling asleep i kept getting horrible pictures in my head. blood and needles. this is a thing that happens sometimes. but i was comforted.
and i feel safe again.
