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(His eyes are small, but his tail is e-nor-mouse.)
just like always, been away from my dear slow computer forever and a day so i have lots to say. but i won't say it all because i've been babbling quite enough lately, verbally and on here.
'cos i'm still manic.
i think maybe it's the sunshine. maybe i just get really nasty S.A.D. or something.
when i saw n last night he was not enthusiastic about my babbling. he wants depth. so after dinner (which he bought me, yay, lasagna) we drove out to hyde park and listened to rachmaninov, and talked. it's all so strange, seeing him again, because we don't have all the lines and things in place. and part of me remembers his smell and his touch and everything is comfortable and out-of-place both at once.
it makes me think of my mother and father. how strange it is to be married for twenty years and bring up children together and then not even talk on the phone.
people things.
some of them were less complicated.
before i saw neil i had a lovely tutoring session. and when the girl asked for tutoring this saturday i said - oh, i'm marching in pride - and she said - really? that's great! and later when her mother drove me home she told me that i was a wonderful tutor and they wished they'd found me earlier.
validation. (yes. i need it.)
more later. time to find lunch.
just like always, been away from my dear slow computer forever and a day so i have lots to say. but i won't say it all because i've been babbling quite enough lately, verbally and on here.
'cos i'm still manic.
i think maybe it's the sunshine. maybe i just get really nasty S.A.D. or something.
when i saw n last night he was not enthusiastic about my babbling. he wants depth. so after dinner (which he bought me, yay, lasagna) we drove out to hyde park and listened to rachmaninov, and talked. it's all so strange, seeing him again, because we don't have all the lines and things in place. and part of me remembers his smell and his touch and everything is comfortable and out-of-place both at once.
it makes me think of my mother and father. how strange it is to be married for twenty years and bring up children together and then not even talk on the phone.
people things.
some of them were less complicated.
before i saw neil i had a lovely tutoring session. and when the girl asked for tutoring this saturday i said - oh, i'm marching in pride - and she said - really? that's great! and later when her mother drove me home she told me that i was a wonderful tutor and they wished they'd found me earlier.
validation. (yes. i need it.)
more later. time to find lunch.
