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sucking chest wound
last night nate was all excited about summerdaze, and was all excited about getting me to come for extra-special-reason. and then i made him tell me what extra-special-reason was and he pointed to miss n's ticket and my heart was full of aches, and he showed me her sms, and i cried for a long time.
and i watched 'a very long engagement' with my family and mr wolf, not having read reviews, because i thought giagia and papou would enjoy it. and it was very good, beautifully done, but a lot like twisting the knife.
and miss a's birthday is soon, nate said, saying, 'if you care at all', and i do but it's all too hard to explain.
so i look like a horrible crazy woman, angry at all her friends, and i disappointed nate, which makes me sad because it was a sweet thing he thought.
but i'm not angry. i'm just sad, and very bad at dealing with people.
and i watched 'a very long engagement' with my family and mr wolf, not having read reviews, because i thought giagia and papou would enjoy it. and it was very good, beautifully done, but a lot like twisting the knife.
and miss a's birthday is soon, nate said, saying, 'if you care at all', and i do but it's all too hard to explain.
so i look like a horrible crazy woman, angry at all her friends, and i disappointed nate, which makes me sad because it was a sweet thing he thought.
but i'm not angry. i'm just sad, and very bad at dealing with people.